Sometimes you just have to wonder if this is all really a coincidence. To me, there are some things that just fall too perfectly into place for it to be a coincidence.
Pretty much everyday I go to the Bikram Yoga website to look at whatever, usually the job postings for 'teachers wanted'. So, yesterday I do the usual but there was something different about the teacher training page, which I noticed right away since I go to the website all the time......teacher training is NOT in Vegas this fall.....it is in SAN DIEGO! WHAT?!? I had been warned that it could change locations on us and sure enough, it did.
Hmmm.....how do I feel???? I left San Diego at such a weird time in my life, after living there for 4 years. I didn't leave on good terms and have always felt that I didn't have closure there. But, I figured that moving on and working through those negatives emotions was the way to get closure. And, now a couple of years later and having worked through alot of those emotions I feel like I am in a really good and healthy place in my life. But, there's always been something with me and that city that I didn't feel was finished, although I never knew what to make of that feeling. I just left it alone and figured that the journey would take care of it all. And, now this? SO WEIRD! Is this going to be the closure that I always felt I needed? Who knows?!?
I started practicing Bikram's in San Diego. I was first introduced to this amazing practice at the La Jolla studio. I knew that I loved it from the first class but because of my negative state of mind it was so hard for me. It is the only studio where I have walked out of class, cried in class, drove there and then drove away because I couldn't handle walking in and looking at myself in the mirror. I feel like going to training there is sort of like coming full circle with this decade of my life. (side note - I turn 30 while at training). I get to return to San Diego to accomplish something so positive. The irony of it all is crazy.
In my last post I said that I felt like I was going completely in the right direction and this news has absolutely just sealed the deal. I don't think that this could have been scripted any better. I do think though that I am going to have to work through alot of emotion while there. From what I have read everyone works through a certain amount of emotion during training, depending on what they hold inside. I think, for me, there is going to be alot going on emotionally and mentally. I can't wait, I am so ready for all of this.
As for my practice over the last couple of weeks.....I only practiced 3 times the week following the 30-day challenge and guess what....I didn't feel as great as when I was practicing everyday - big shock! The mini break is over and I will be back to 5 days a week, at least. I cancelled my membership to the Y so it's either yoga or running as far as workouts go.
Less than 3 months to the start. I am patiently waiting but I am pretty excited about all of this. The interconnectedness of the universe is at work and I feel calm knowing that it is all going to work out just as it should....The good, the bad. The ebbs and flows. SO WEIRD!
